Ohh yes... I have to stop.. Not anymore

I get the answer, the answer I had been looking for.. all the things that he said is true.. I have known for a long time, but I always deny it.. i am the one always thing that he dont need me, but he won't leave me.. thats why i am behave like this.. but i know i am wrong and i am immature for being like that.. I thought I was in love with him , what a fool I wasn't in love with him, I was in love with his words and with his free mindness.. i dont even know him.. there is not love at all, it just friend to share unspoken think (nonsense love exactly like he said.. ) he's just someone who fills the emptiness of my heart, but he will never really be there.. he is just the guy that i am date before i meet the guy i end up with.. i know who i am and what i want.. i am someone who's not gonna let another undeserving stranger in to my heart.. but i am happy he taught me many things.. thank you for that, he is the most decent guy i have ever met.. maybe i have to live my life with new perspective.. new perspective that there is no him in it.. but still i have a wish.. "I wish I would have never met him,it would have saved me from so much pain".... 


Don't push anyone to hard, if it's meant to be, it will happen.. thats it..