Selasa, 27 Desember 2011

Letter to You..


dear my future handsome husband, 


once we're merried later, my family is your family. And your family is my family too. Pls treat my parents as your parents, because I will absolutely treat yours as mine. I will respect them, take care of them, love them, do everything for them, so please do the same to my parents too. i know they are quite annoying, very religious, and rude behaviour sometime.. but they did not mean it like that, that's the way they convey affection and love. And my dear future  handsome husband, please take good care of me. Please don't hit me, except when I disobey you.. i will continously make u feel special and tries to make u happy.  please love me, respect me, cherish me, hug me, kiss me i would love softness of your lips against mine , protect me, defend me,  listen to my stories and laugh with me, please always be there when i need you to be because i will always be there for you too, whether u need me or not. 


i would thank GOD everyday for bringing someone as wonderfull as you into my life. I want to be the girl who makes your bad days better and who makes you say my life has changed since I've been with her... thats all i ask my future husband... I did not ask too much, this is supposed to do husband to wife.. 


Sincerely,
Your future wife

Sabtu, 24 Desember 2011

where all the money goes ?

nowadays.. i had been thingking that i do not have enough saving money as I planned 2 years ago.. damn.. where all the money goes ?.. like i said on my topic two weeks ago.. money can buy everything, Money is great to have as long as i manage and spend it wisely..but i never do that.. i waste it and i don’t even realize it.. money teach me to do what i want to do instead of what i have to do.. 



how ? why ?


every end of month.. everyone feel happy and always seen smiling.. because they knew that their account will recharge, thats perfect time for shopping.. i do same.. when i received message from my bank..  and its like a bell.. ting tong.. I need to do first is to pay my credit card bill, buy a package of internet, blackberry packages, refill pulse and the rest of it is I can use to buy things I do not really need.. hahaa.. see..!!! i even forget to save. I'm the one who's easy to spend money without thingking.. i will give u an example.. when i go to shop and once i see this line " buy 1 get 1 free" I feels like this is an opportunity that only comes one time..  so I did not buy one, I bought 3-5 items.. hahaa.. whereas I know that in fact I only need one.. my eyes just hangry of it..  not stop on that.. its getting worst, when i change my phone cell type three times a year, not because of broken, but because I was bored with the model..  


love lotions too much.. i have many of this

two cream of foot

two repellents lotions

really dissipation..
i have a lot of dream that i persue with my own money. i do decide to spend my hard earned money on something practical, useful, and meaningful. one of them is Travel to See the Significant People in my Life.. As time quickly passes, sometimes i forget how essential strong personal relationships  to my mental wellbeing.. The older we get the more we need true friends and family to be regular parts of our lives. second thing is Educate myself.. Use my money to purchase educational courses or books pertaining to my career.. get my brain fresh up.. even though i dont like riding but i would try to buy it as much..  because i want  look older, smarter and more emotionally mature .The third, Buy Meaningful Gifts for important People in my Life.. It doesn’t have to be their birthday..  i remember someone said "there is no better gift than an unexpected gift"  You will make them feel special... 

in order to realize my dreams.. I must have a key and principles to do so.. start from small thing.. I have to save money by this way.. Stop buying DVD, CD, Magazine, Newspaper and STOP go to CINEMA.. 
I have the internet package that should I pay each month..  This has been charging me, why do not I use the maximum way..  The same exact articles are online for free.  I can read them right now and I didn’t pay a dime.  all movies update could i download on one of webside that provide it.. all song that heard from radio could be easy download it with 4shared or mediafire.. its so damn easy and free on online.. stop buying shoes because I already have a lot.. Fix What Is Broken : its means Use my money wisely to fix and maintain my belongings... then STOP CULINARY and Prepared Foods.. Eating out is ridiculously expensive...i will  learn to cook and prepare my own food.  It’s not just cheaper, it’s healthier too... hahaa... STOP Nutritional Supplements : i dont need that.. i think enough with eat twice a day and  dont eat junk food..  It is impossible to maintain a healthy body and mind if you pump your body full of junk food.  because wise word says “You are what you eat " its means my health is my life. and last but not least.. do not use a credit card if it is not forced.. try to pay for everything with cash or debit card... 
STOP buy this Stuff.. Useless


Senin, 19 Desember 2011

Hey.. PUnk.. yoU Got PunkeD man..!!



60 Anak Punk Digunduli Polisi Syariah Aceh, Jadi Sorotan Internasional




Banda Aceh - Sedikitnya 60 anak punk ditangkap polisi syariah di Nangroe Aceh Darussalam usai menonton konser. Mereka juga digunduli karena dianggap menodai citra Aceh. Kasus ini pun menjadi perhatian sejumlah media asing, mulai dari media Australia hingga Eropa dan Amerika.


Seperti diberitakan kantor berita AFP, Rabu (14/12/2011), penangkapan ini dilakukan pada Sabtu (10/12) lalu di Banda Aceh. Sebanyak 59 pemuda laki-laki dan 5 pemudi ditangkap polisi syariah. Para pemuda digunduli dan para pemudi dipotong pendek rambutnya. Mereka kemudian disuruh untuk mandi di danau, lantas berganti pakaian dan salat.


"Kami khawatir jika penerapan hukum syariah Islam di provinsi ini akan ternoda oleh kegiatan mereka. Kami berharap, dengan mengirimkan mereka ke rehabilitasi, mereka akan segera bertobat," ujar Wakil Walikota Banda Aceh, Illiza Sa'aduddin Djamal yang memerintahkan penangkapan tersebut.


Saat itu, ratusan penggemar punk dari berbagai daerah memang sengaja datang ke Banda Aceh untuk menghadiri konser yang diadakan untuk mengumpulkan uang bagi anak yatim. Namun, saat itu juga polisi menggerebek lokasi konser dan menangkap orang-orang yang berpenampilan punk dengan rambut mohawk, bertato dan bercelana jeans ketat dan penuh rantai. Usai ditangkap, mereka dibawa sebuah rumah rehabilitasi moral dan akan berada di sana selama 10 hari.


Menurut polisi, penangkapan ini memang dilakukan demi mencegah para pemuda dan pemudi ini dari perilaku 'menyimpang'.


"Mereka tidak pernah mandi, mereka tinggal di jalanan, tidak pernah melakukan salat. Kita harus memperbaiki mereka sehingga mereka bisa berperilaku benar dan sesuai moral. Mereka butuh perlakuan tegas untuk mengubah perilaku dan mental mereka," ujar Kapolda Aceh, Irjen Pol Iskandar Hasan.


Tindakan polisi dan pemerintah Aceh ini mendapat kritikan dari aktivis setempat, Evi Narti Zain. Penangkapan ini dinilai tak beralasan dan melanggar HAM.


"Apa yang polisi lakukan benar-benar aneh. Menjadi seorang anak punk hanyalah gaya hidup. Orang seperti mereka ada di seluruh dunia dan mereka tidak melanggar aturan atau pun merugikan orang lain," katanya.


Adapun media asing yang memberitakan kasus ini, yakni New York Daily, The Telegraph, Washington Post, Daily Mail, Sydney Morning Herald, CBS News dan sebagainya. Mereka rata-rata menulis bahwa penangkapan dan penggundulan anak punk tersebut yang dinilai melanggar HAM.

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wahh.. anak Punk lagi naek daun yahh.. hahaaa..

baca berita tadi gw punya beberapa tanggapan atau komentar atau apalah yah namanya.. yang pertama, gw tinggal di lingkungan yang bisa di bilang gampang banget ketemu anak punk model gini.. mereka emang terlihat nggak pernah mandi, tidur di jalan , nggak pernah sholat bahkan kadang annoying juga siyh.. karna beberapa kali sering gw liat mereka iseng sama orang yang lalu lalang di jalan.. bahkan gw sendiri pernah jadi korban.. karna pantat gw pernah di colek sama salah satu anak punk yang sering mangkal di jalan tempat gw nunggu angkot kalo berangkat kerja.. mau marahhhh?? tapi gimana.. mereka malah makin seneng kalo gw marahain, yang ada malah ngetawain gw dan more making fun on me.. husss..



baca berita tadi nggak salah juga , hukum syariat Aceh nangkep mereka trus ngebotakin yang cowo2nya dan yang cewe rambutnya dipendekin gitu.. trus disuruh mandi di danau dan di suruh sholat.. gw rasa nggak ada yang salah dengan hal itu.. dan masalah ngebotakin kepala nggak ada hubungannya sama Pelanggaran HAM.... helloooo ..!! bukannya di sekolah dari dulu kalo ada cowo rambut gondrong dipotong paksa yah.. atau kalo cewe roknya terlalu pendek di gunting gitu.. kenapa baru sekarang orang orang ngomongin masalah HAM di kasus yang kecil kaya gini.. mereka nggak lihat detail apa kalo anak anak punk itu rambutnya emang kudu harus di potong karna ketombenya udah tebal kaga pernah di kramasin tauuu...hahaaa.. boro2 keramas mandi aja mungkin bisa dibilang seminggu sekali..lagian apa sih HAM itu.. ?? kenapa harus ngomongin HAM itu masalah yang kecil.. it means : ini kaya masalah anak kecil nggak mau disuruh mandi sama bokapnya jadi mesti dipaksa.. dan paksaan itu dateng dari pihak yang bener.. karna Aceh itu udah menetapkan aturan SYARIAH... dan apapun yang bisa mencoreng hukum syariah mereka memang patut untuk ditindak dan dibenarkan.. gw sangat mendukung langkah tegas polisi Syariah Aceh.. masih banyak kasus HAM yang lebih penting dari pada anak2 punk ini.. sudah bagus dan sangat positif.. 

Baca Berita ke dua :

hahaaa... keren juga yang berarti anak2 punk di Rusia ini lebih maju dari pada yang di Indonesia.. buktinya mereka tau anak2 punk di Aceh di bina dan digunduli.. itu artinya mereka baca koran, nonton tv dan browsing internet.. saluuut sama  solidaritasnnya.. sampe kebelahan dunia yang antah berantah jauhnya.. 

Baca Berita ke tiga :


Hemmm.. Rancid dalam twitternya : "We hate what's going on with our punk brothers and sisters in Indonesia. Rancid's got your back!" 

hey man.. our youth nation dont need look like you guys.. they need to be clean and neat to get a job..  we know ur sympathy but we think this is not necessary.. rather be you came to indonesia, make a free concert for your brother and sister here.. 

Senin, 12 Desember 2011

Money CAN Buy Everything




Do you believe money can buy Everything ???
YES.. i believe.. I would be cynical here.. because i used to be realistic not idealistic.. 


I believe that there are three things that can cause divorce : and the main thing is financial stuff, the second is the infidelity, and the third is sex.. I have seen many cases from my friends, my neighbor, even from my sister.. and yes mostly came from financial.. if you can handle the financial problems of the first, the cause of the second and third in my opinion does not matter anymore.. we are all know that money is important thing in our lives.. even when you read this article you need money for internet connection right ?


everyone says : With money you can buy a house but not a home; With money you can buy a clock but not time; With money you can buy a bed but not sleep; With money you can buy insurance but not safety; With money you can buy food but not an appetite; With money you can buy a book but not knowledge; With money you can buy a doctor but not health; With money you can buy a position but not respect; With money you can buy blood but not life; With money you can buy sex but not love..... Hey.. i am not saying money is everything.. but with money we can buy anything you know.. experience has taught me how i can buy everything with money.. technically essential stuff like happiness, love, peace, knowladge can not be bought with money because it is not for sale... and the truth i bet u will be happy if u have material things (cars, gedget, phone cell or expensive thing on earth..) such as proportional, the more you're rich .. you more easily find happiness... we can be wise to reach our happiness with our money..  i will make an example.. 


- DISTANCE -


i have someOne  thousand miles away from me.. i wish oneday i could see him..  I really wanted to visit him.. but now I do not have enough savings money to finance my trip there.. and he neither.. now.. if i may wish.. if I have a lot of money I would book flight, booking hotels and car rental and all the trip stuff to accommodate me to get there... so that I could see his face and hugged him, and do all thing that only i can imagine in my mind before.. see.. !! distance is doesnt matter anymore.. how easy money to buy the distance... such as turning the palm of the hand.. 


- what else money can buy ?? is YOU.. yes YOU - 


if you dont have money.. ur nothing.. You will not be accepted everywhere, dont think u could play poker in Vegas if u dont have money dude.. hahaa..sometimes even your own family will underestimate you if you do not have money..  i dont want someone paying my bill.. because once it happend.. he/she will take control of me.. in hangout zone.. you will be obedient to those who pay the bills.. because you will always feel bad and feel indebted because of it.. see again !! even u cant deny that money can buy you..


at the end.. i love my gadgets, love my camera,love my blackberry,  love my CD collections, love all my shoes, love make parents happy, love make sister and brother happy, love my niece happy.. and thanks to the money that has made be real for me.. I owe you and I will always find you..

Kamis, 08 Desember 2011

Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead


"God sent A good person for us to learn their goodness and further we make a good practice of it then as we understood the messages, God take back that good person.. "


yes.. thats true.. it has been a crazy ride for me - relationship story-  got in to 3 in relationship life and failed miserably in all of them.. hahaa.. I will not say who broke the relationship but let say Dumped in 3 out of the 3 hahaa.. how misfortune i am.. i dont know , i just think God has not sent me the right man for now.. wise word said "mate in the hands of god" but i have the fit answer for that.. if we do not pursue our mate he/she will always be in the hands of god.. right ??? thats why flirting is an obligation.. hahaaa..


Anyhow, I'd like to share a story about me and him..


he is cute..has deep eyes and peaceful look on his face. 
he is strong , i think. never seen him tired.. 
not type of joke person.. but he always put smile on his face even wry smile.
He can't sing. He has one of the most awful voices I've heard in my life. I always said "shut up" when he started singing the song playing in the car haha.. but i admit he is the best driver that i ever met..
he has thick hair and black, i luv it
He can't play the guitar too well, he dont even know where A# or B#
not fashionable, not exist in social network..
He doesn't have the most coolest friends on earth.
But his friends are always there for him, and his relationship with his family is really good too.
he dont know islam very well.. 


As much as I'd like to think he is the most perfect guy I have ever met, he has his flaws. His words hurts like a blade cutting through my heart every single time.


He says I'm not fine with my make up.
he said I was too influenced by family, wishy washy
He said I was weak unable to make my own decisions
He says I'm this, while I should really be that.
Stop doing the things that you kept on doing in the past.
Constantly trying to change me. correcting me in every single thing that I do.


Most of the time, I'd take his words and turn it into something positive and take it as a challenge. Until one day I snapped. Even then, it was not a fight. It was just a "discussion". A heart to heart moment. 


It's because of me and my imperfections.. At the end, he never contacted me anymore.

Selasa, 06 Desember 2011

Very Nice Truth..


ARE U IN LUV?

When u r together with that prson,
u pretend 2 ignore that person..
U r in luv....!

If u r much more excited 4 one short msg frm that prson
than
many other long msgs,
u r n luv...!

Whn u cant erase ur inbox
bcoz of 1 msg from that person,
u r n luv....!

U keep telling urself
that he/she is just a friend..
U r in love....!

WHILE READING THIS MSG,
if sumbody comes 2 ur mind..
U R IN LUV WITH THAT PERSON.....!


♥ ♥ ♥ 


ONLY ONE


I love Everyone
but I love ♥ Only one


I Live for EveryOne 
But I Breathe For Only One


I Talk to EveryOne 
But I share Everything to Only one


I Smile with Everyone 
But I smile is For Only One


I am for EveryOne 
But I belong to Only One


And The Only One is ♥ Only You..♥ my Supper Sweet Boyfriend 

Minggu, 04 Desember 2011

Two Things that I Really Hate the Most


yow know, everyone have their own Phobia.. and i will tell u what i really hate the most.. since i was young i really dont like dogs.. i think they smell like a shit.. sorry.. i never sniff them but i just think like that .. i dont know.. hahaa.. Whenever i see a dog i run the other way and even  I would scream if the dog approached me.. because i believe Dogs can  do bite me on occasion.. and i dont want it happpend to me.. NO WAY.. but sometimes These actions typically bring a dog closer, not keep it away hahaaa.. and when i keep eye contact with them i just become freezes.. is't normal thing ??
look at his teeth.. i dont wanna play with ur teeth buddy haha..
wise word says " The more you know about something, the less scary it becomes" but... hey.. u want me to  learn about dog body language and behavior... ?? come on.. what a silly advice.. I did not even dare to touch them.. yes.. i know a basic knowledge of body language can help me to understand a dog’s intentions because Dogs communicate with human almost entirely through body language.. but  in my religion touched and licked by a dog is haram things.. moreover being bitten.. BIG NO WAY.. i did not say dogs is creepy, i just said that dog is an animal that is easy to bite.. because in my general mind dogs are always used as an animal keeper, therefore they were given a tolerance for biting.. that is why i afraid of them.. but sometime i think have a baby dog is fun and funny thing.. moreover the dogs is smart, its must be fun like in movie Air bud.. cool.. 


and the second thing that i phobia the most is a madman.. hahaa... i think everyone afraid with them  not exception me.. madman is the one who lost his mind and the person who doesnt have mind is always do spontaneous things.. i am just afraid if i met madman he/she will do something spontaneous to me such as : hit me, spit on me, bind me, yell at me and the worst is kiss me.. yakzz.. dont let them do that to me God.. I always try to go as far as possible from them when i meet them.. 

Gw Maafkan tapi Tidak akan Gw lupakan


punya satu perasaan yang nggak enak sama seseorang. tapi males banget untuk fix-in masalahnya... hehee.. jadi kaya ngerasa gw ke dia itu nggak akan sama lagi..


jadi gini.. gw punya tetangga, cowo.. seumuran kebetulan temen SMP gw juga... pernah deket banget.. temen maen bareng.. sampe sekarang juga tetep temenan tapi nggak akan kaya dulu lagi.. karna ada satu hal yang bikin dia blacklist dimata gw.. sebenernya dia udah coba memperbaikin situasi yg nggak enak diantara kita.. tapi semuanya balik lagi ke gw.. dan Kebetulan lagi yah.. Gw itu tipikal "orang yang mudah memaafkan dan tidak mudah melupakan" jadii.. sorry sorry ya jek.. LOE GW END heheee...


si cowo ini yang kita sebut sebagai R aja yang biar kaya di reportase..!! (lho.. apa hubungannya mba ?) hehee.. si R ini concern banget ama gw, tapi nggak tau concern apa wanna know yah tentang urusan percintaan gw.. ceritanya temennya dia itu mantan gw.. udah lama putus... tapi dia secara periodictly tanya ke gw.. udah punya pacar blm?? atau sekarang pacarnya orang mana ?? gw kasih tau donk yah.. sekarang lagi pacaran sama temen kantor, yang udah nggak sekantor lagi.. dan itu udah dari 3 tahun yang lalu..sampe sekarangpun masih aja suka nanya masalah pribadi gw itu.. nahhh.. satu taun kemaren mantan gw (yg notabene temennya dia) merried.. dengan merriednya mantan gw itu.. R ini jadi bikin gw risih.. dia bilang buruan merried nanti keburu kiamatlah.. nggak usah milih2 lah, tunggu apa lagi lah??, dan etc etc yang semuanya bikin gw gerah.. trus puncaknya dia bilang "ati ati jadi perawan tua".. WHAT ??? WTF  ?? are u try me ? anjrit anjrit anjrit.. haloooo please deh.. ini hidup gw.. nyokap bokap gw aja nggak pernah bilang gitu ke gw.. hey.. i am 25 and extreamly happy with my life right now... OK.. so SHUT UP UR F**K'in DirTy Mouth.. gw tau dia ngomongnya sambil becanda.. tapi kadang ada saat saat dimana gw lagi nggak mood terima joke.. dan pada waktu itu gw sedang tidak butuh joke, jadi apapun bentuknya gw nggak terima..  semenjak kejadian itu.. gw berusaha jaga jarak sama dia, karna gw pikir nggak temenan sama dia nggak mati hahaaaa.. (dangkal banget pemikirannya yah..bodo) .. dia berusaha minta maaf kirim sms , kirim pesan di fb, bahkan ngomong langsung.. gw siy bilang gw maafin .. tapi spt kata kata gw diatas sebelumnya " gw memaafkan tapi tidak akan gw lupakan " .. dari situ tiap kali ketemua dia cuma bisa senyum asem tanpa ngomong apa-apa...so damn weird.. karna biasanya kalo ketemu kita ngobrol panjang, kadang sampe malem.. mulai dari ngomongin orang, ngomongin kerjaan, music, film banyakkk... agak sedih siy.. jadi kehilangan temen.. tapi mau gimana lagi.. inilah gw.. inilah egoistis gw..  

Jumat, 18 November 2011

Status sampah di Facebook


facebook sudah tidak seru jika kita tidak lagi menantikan datangnya pesan didalam inbox dan datangnya notifikasi di dalam wall.. yepp..thats what i feel right know..  


lagi males facebookkan.. kayanya dunia blog lebih seru.. liat-liat profil dan artikel orang orang2, ada yang lucu.. serius.. show up.. edukatif..macem- macem.. semua orang itu unik yah.. mereka mempresentasikan diri dari berbagai cara.. sering banget nemuin blognya ibu2 isinya resep masakan semua.. atau blognya anak smp isinya komikkk melulu (hitam putih lagi..) haha, ada juga blognya anak kuliahan tiap pulang kuliah pasti curhat, blognya orang kantoran.. nyeritain apa yang terjadi semalem di tempat clubbing (woo.. weird), atau blognya dokter2.. isinya tanya jawab masalah kesehatan .. bagus niy sapa tau ada penyakit yang pengen ditanyain , bisa langsung kirim pertanyaannya di blog tsb..intinya semua orang punya pemikiran dan satu sisi dari dirinya yang pengen diekspos ke semua orang.. mau itu hobby, life style, kerjaan, sekolah, bisa apa ajaaa.. bebas.. dan itu menurut gw unikk..


blog itu nggak cepet bikin kita bosen.. karna itu cuma tempat kita share apa yang kita tau atau apa yang kita rasain.. jadi beda banget sama facebook yang selalu butuh timbal balik, status update, yang bikin kita selalu ngerasa mikir mikir mikir tiap kali kita mau share, karna yang baca itu banyak dan responnya cepet.. salah ngomong dicela, lupa logout dibajak, gossip diluar dibawa2 di status, masalah kantor diomongin di wall.. complicated.. semakin kesini facebook semakin membosankan karna banyak banget status sampah didalemnya.. status sampah tu maksudnya kaya gini niy : " Kepikiran Kª♍Ï… bkiN aq deg"an…… #eeeaaaa," atau gini "Tak Æ‹̲̣̣̣̥ԃƌ̲̣̣̣̥ semangatd hri nie:(" atau  "…dalam hati kupanggil namamu,,smOga saja kaU dengar & merasakan…" atau yang lebih parah lagi gini "Masih ngantuk,..! Molor lage ah,." haloooooo... nggak ada yang mau tau urusan lo kaliii.. situ artis apah... hahaaa.. bisa di diamuk masa niy kalo yang punya status tau kalo statusnya gw copy paste.. tau nggak sih kalo semakin banyak status sampahnya semakin bosen orang yang baca.. contohnya gw niy.. udah beberapa orang di remove karna tiap page ada status dia yang alay tak henti henti, tapi malah makin kesini nggak tua nggak muda alay semua ..parahhh..boseennn saya bacanya tauukk.. mau saia remove nggak enak kamu teman saia, nanti saia dibawa bawa lagi di status kamu.. hahaaa.. sekarang gw yang alay ini mah..


sebenrnya siy mau ngelink-in orangnya sekalian biar ngerasa, tapi mengingat dan mempertimbangkan nilai nilai moral masyarakat indonesia yang kekeluargaan , maka saya mengurungkan niat tersebut hahahaa.. pesan saya tolong bapak2 dan ibu2 yang statusnya tidak penting itu segera dihentikan atau lebih baik diganti dengan status2 yang lebih berbobot dan bernilai estetika tinggi (hahaa.. ngerti gak bahasanya ?) beeuhh.. sok pinter bener yak sayah..

Rabu, 16 November 2011

More Panties and More Bras



I am very lucky and proud to be women..  because I can wear panties and bra.. yes.. panties and bra.. i am crazy with this stuff..mostly panties..  hahaa.. almost every week to buy panties, though just buy one.. it's enough to make me happy.. I enjoy shopping panties alone because i have a lot time to hunting without anyone bothering me while i am serching.. there is no one yell at me.. "hey.. u spend  a long time here.." you know.. we need to focus to decide what type and the colour of panties we buy, even though it is not visible but it has an essential meaning for me..  It's sexy, erotic, and makes me feel closer to my self..


when I use an expensive bra and panties I always felt double more confident than when I used to wear a bra and panties as usually.. i dont know why ?? whether all women feel it or not.. but it works for me.. and then when i having on a date.. I prepared penties and bra are very expensive and I like the most.. yet I know no one will ever see it, i am just feel it.. and i am happy with it..


basictly,, I like all kinds of bras, but not for the bra wire and thick foamed.. bra wire is make me sick and thick foamed bra is too much.. i like type such as : sport bra, Push up Bra, red bra, black bra, embroidery bra and etc ect. same with panties.. like hipster panties, silk panties, and white panties but big no no to thong or g-string : its  look like a whore when women wearing it..


its sexy.. but i hate it

i will admit something :


did you ever see a woman wearing a thin white shirt and wearing a black bra? you know what its mean ??  besides  black and white high contrast, there are actually other intentions who want to show with it.. they want feel "invisible" and be the center of attention without having to show her breasts directly .. thats women called "spotlight" everything need spotlight This is no exception.. hahaa.. every women have narsis side, though not all express it correctly.. and i admit it .. i am wearing white t-shirt and black bra sometime (oow.. now everyone know i am a bit bitch hahaa.) and i am not lie about it.. i just feel my sexappeal comes up with that and thats my inner satisfaction..  dont get me wrong.. thats normal things, every women does..



Sabtu, 12 November 2011

One Night Stand with T-Pain

do you know T-pain ??  i am such a big fan of him.. his songs encorage my mood.. make me feel wanna dance.. dance.. dance..   when i hear his voice it just does somenthing to me..  even more sexy when he said " move your body like snake.." hahaa.. basictly i love hip hop and dance music since 10 years ago.. start with eminem and jay z.. but they are too rap and hiphop and little bit beat.. i need more hiphop like music i heard in the club.. just like dj said "put ur hand in the air " or " make it wet, make it wet" hahaa .. I am definitely a big fan of T-pain. He is such a great talent when it comes to rap. There is nobody out there better then this... the beat.. wonderfull..



you know what is most interesting from T-pain !! .. he is 25. he is not singing about love per say. he is singing about love in a way that a 25-year-old does – one nights stands and sexual innuendo... hahaa .. thats why i love this guy.. because i am 25 too.. but i never do one night stand (i swear) hahaa.. he has great style and i love the way he does with his hair..
I am actually a woman with great hiphop taste.. but I can not prove by using Bling bling , gold teeth, baggy clothes, baseball cap, or saying "hi nigga" everywhere.. hahaa.. it is not acceptable here, too flashy and attract attention.. once i heard t-pain song playing in the mall, I could not stop to sing along (though I am very confused with the quickly lyrics haha..) but its ok.. i can still shaking my head till the music drop.. 



more intimate with T-pain, check his profile : 
Faheem Rasheed Najm (born September 30, 1985), better known by his stage name T-Pain, is an American singer-songwriter, rapper, record producer, and actor, currently signed to Young Money Entertainment. His debut album, Rappa Ternt Sanga, was released in 2005. In 2007, T-Pain released his second studio album Epiphany, which reached number one on the Billboard 200. His third studio album,Thr33 Ringz, was released in 2008. T-Pain has earned two Grammy Awards alongside artists Kanye West and Jamie Foxx.
T-Pain is the founder of the record label Nappy Boy Entertainment, established in 2005. Throughout his career as a singer, T-Pain has extensively used the Auto-Tune pitch correction effect.  from : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/T-Pain







There are awesome songs from t-pain that i love the most :
* Bartender feat akon
* best love song feat Chris Brown
* i am dancing ( i curently hear right now)
* i am in love with the stripper
* move that body feat nelly
* and etc eat, you can see on youtube

Kamis, 10 November 2011

I AM NOT FANATIC BUT I WILL LITTLE BIT RELIGIOUS.. A BIT


he :  "Im Secular! I dnt blv in god anymore! "
me : "You think you come from where? are you there by itself? "
he :  "only people help you when you need help ??? "
me :  "they help you because God allows.."
he : " Only religion is the cause of riots ?? "
me : " it depends on how you understand religion you believe, and religion never taught us about riots.."
he : " I dnt want to go in Paradise "
me : " there is no one does not want to go to paradise.. i bet.. "
he : " They suffer hell in the reality ? So its nt important to them what they want after death! 
me : "  I also do not believe in life after death but I believe everything we do now there will be accountable after we die.." 



This dialog appears when I saw his profile on the internet, about Religious Views..  I cant understand why people choose to live as secular.. they do not even think that all who come to them is because of god, not there by itself.. its selfish when they said  " i dont believe in God"..  who give u a soul ? who give you  brain ? who give you passion ?.. this is not uneducated questions..  its just questions that you never find the answer with science.. its same with you asking me about " who is god ?" , "do i ever seen god ?" , " do i ever meet god?" etc etc.. theres no one ever seem God besides Muhammad SAW.. but we can be wise with reading and understanded what religions says about god or about everything which explains the power of god, such as : creation of nature, astronomy, information about earth, animals, plants and human birth..and thats all explain it long long time ago before it all there...  and there is nothing to do with science anymore.. science have the limit and god it not..  

ok i will make more spesific.. 

i am muslim. i am Islam. Allah grants anything He wants, for me to take with open heart. pray for my islah (getting better) each day... There’s no chaos/riot in Islam. Life is an art of giving. Give great things with all your heart. Make your solat great and beautifully organised, to present it to Him.  in order to win the most of everything, we have to follow the most righteous Ruler. Surrender to Allah, give your heart and soul to Him. Simply do whatever He has told us to, and leave whatever He has forbid. whether you like it or wondering why you have to do it. This is the matter of surrendering to Allah, leaving the hikmah for Him to decide and grant to us...  may Allah bless us, as always :D

that is all for now. hope that my english is getting better. hahaa..

Jumat, 04 November 2011

Some stories.. awesome

A girl and a guy are on a motorcycle

Girl: This is really scary, slow down!
Guy: No, I'm having too much fun!
Girl: Please stop!
Guy: First hug me
Girl: *hugs*
Guy: Tell me you love me
Girl:I love you, can you slow down now?
Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? It's bugging me
Girl: *puts on helmet*


Next Day's Headlines:
There was an accident involving a motocycle accident. There were two people riding the motorcycle at the time of impact. The vehicle was speeding out of control and drove off road and into a building. Only one of the two people died.


What Really Happened:
Half way through the ride the guy noticed that the brakes were gone, but he didn't want to scare the girl. So he got her to hug him one last time, and to know that she loved him. He got her to wear the helmet so that if they did crash, that she would survive, although that meant that he had to die...


***
Girl: Do you really love me?
Boy: Of course I do.
Girl: I wanna hear you say it.
Boy: I don’t have to.
Girl: Why not?
Boy: Because...
Girl: I just want to hear you say it in words.
Boy: I can’t...


The girl started to cry softly and

said:Then you don't love me...
The two continued to walk in silence.
They reached the girls home.
Girl: Why?
Boy: Do you really want to know?
Girl: (hesitantly) Yes.
He hugged her gently, kissed the tip of her nose and whispered in her ear,
"Because three words are not enough...

***
A Letter from "Mom n Dad"...

My Child,
When I get old, I hope you understand 'n have patience with me
... In case I break the plate, or spill soup on the table because I’m losing my eyesight, I hope you don’t yell at me.
Older people are sensitive, always having self pity when you yell.
When my hearing gets worse 'n I can’t hear what you’re saying, I hope you don’t call me ‘Deaf!’ Please repeat what you said or write it down.

I’m sorry, my child. I’m getting older.
When my knees get weaker, I hope you have the patience to help me get up.Like how I used to help you while you were little, learning how to walk. Please bear with me, when I keep repeating myself like a broken record, I hope you just keep listening to me.Please don’t make fun of me, or get sick of listening to me.
Do you remember when you were little 'n you wanted a ballon? You repeated yourself over 'n over until you get what you wanted. Please also pardon my smell. I smell like an old person.Please don’t force me to shower. My body is weak.
Old people get sick easily when they’re cold. I hope I don’t gross you out.

Do you remember when you were little? I used to chase you around because you didn’t want to shower.I hope you can be patient with me when I’m always cranky. It’s all part of getting old. You’ll understand when you’re older. 'n if you have spare time, I hope we can talk even for a few minutes. I’m always all by myself all the time, 'n have no one to talk to. I know you’re busy with work. Even if you’re not interested in my stories, please have time for me. Do you remember when you were little? I used to listen to your stories about your teddy bear. When the time comes, 'n I get ill 'n bedridden, I hope you have the patience to take care of me. I’m sorry if I accidentally wet the bed or make a mess.
I hope you have the patience to take care of me during the last few moments of my life. I’m not going to last much longer, anyway.
When the time of my death comes, I hope you hold my hand 'n give me strength to face death.
'n don’t worry.. When I finally meet our creator, I will whisper in his ear to bless you. Because you loved your Mom 'n Dad.
Thank you so much for your care. We love you. ! ?

Minggu, 23 Oktober 2011

PINTAR dan RELIGIUS

Tiap magrib kalo gw lagi ada dirumah , udah kebiasaan tugas jagain warung pada waktu magrib. karna nyokap bokap pada sholat di mesjid.. jadi gw sholatnya tunda dulu sampe tunggu mereka dateng. tiap kali tugas  nunggu warung, ada tetangga gw .. cowo.. umur kurang lebih sama (gak mesti gw sebutin yah umur gw berapa sodara sodara.. hehee) dia selalu sholat di mesjid dan dia selalu berangkatnya injuri time gitu..sambil jalan cepet dan tangan ngancingin baju, muka masih basah sama aer wudhu.. nggak tahu emang dia sibuk sebelumnya jadi pada waktu magrib terburu2 atau memang dia biasa dateng pada waktu sholat udah di mulai... udah lama tetanggaan sama dia , hampir lebih dari 18 tahun. karena semenjak gw pindah ke rumah ini tetangga pertama gw ya dia itu.. tapi dalam kurun waktu 18 tahun itu nggak banyak waktu gw bisa kenal sama dia.. ketemu cuma senyum..ngobrolpun bisa dihitung dengan jari.. dia memang dikenal sangat tertutup dan pendiam sekali.. tapi pintar.. tolong di garis bawahi PINTAR dan RELIGIUS.. no wonder yah sekarang kerja di perusahaan besar dan status udah Kartep dari kapan tau hehee..  sebenarnya gw kenal baik sama adiknya yang cewe, temen masa kecil gw. bahkan gw pernah maen ujan2an dan banjir banjiran sama adeknya.. kenal banget.. tapi semakin kita beranjak dewesa temen masa kecil itu ternyata nggak cocok jadi teman dewasa.. kita udah sibuk masing masing ngerjain urusan dan tugas kita sendiri.. kalo ketemu cuma bilang haiii.. kemana ? dari mana ? itu aja.. setelah itu melengos pergi.. bailk lagi ke kakaknya yah.. kakanya itu sebenernya kerja di tempat yang berbeda sama gw tapi satu group.. dan dia kerja Shifting juga.. dan kebetulan shiftingnya pernah bareng sama gw.. pada waktu gw berangkat dan  keluar rumah berbarengan sama jadwal di berangkat juga... ehhh.. ditawarin bareng.. (bukan sampe kantor yah,, sampe nemu angkot doang maksudnya..).. dalam perjalanan itu gw baru nyadar ternyata orang ini udah jauh lebih dewasa dan sangat sangat cool...maturelah pokoknya.. dan baru sadar juga ternyata,,,,,, senyumnya manisssssssssssssssssssssssss... heehhee... tapi bukan berarti gw suka yah.. suka siyy .. but i mean its too late for u to being a couple.. we are known for a years.. nggak mungkinlah tiba2 suka cuma karna dianterin doank.. nonsense... bokap selalu bilang bahwa dia itu anak yang patut dapet jempol.. selain religius masa depan juga cerah.. yes.. i know father.. hehe.. sesekali penasaran juga ini orang udah punya pacar apa blm ? tapi nggak akan pernah berani nanya ke siapapun.. coz we cant go further.. percuma tau juga, biarin aja ngerasa tiap ketemu dia curious and selalu eager to know.. hahaa...

Selasa, 18 Oktober 2011

My Kind of Guy

1. good looking?
face is relative, everyone could say good looking. who does not want to have a good looking boyfriend ? ,each person has their own perception. Don't worry boy, if you feel your face shoddy, there will be anyone tell you handsome (your mom for sure haha..). wanna know my version of Mr. Good looking ? Hohoho, don't get me wrong.. i have high standart.. hahaaaa..


2. Smart?
Yep, its a must.. does anyone want to have idiotic boyfriend ? i mean.. smart to control everything.. even his yearning..


3. Preferred age?
if this possible i want  5 /7 years  above me.. I feel comfortable with someone older..mature


4. Preferred height?
whatever........


5. How about sense of humor?
its important.. actually i am not the one who have sense of humor.. I just laughed for something really funny.. i am type of serious person. i think i need guy with high sanse of humor.. it can balance me.. maybe makes me smile everytime and everywhere..


6. How about pearcing/tato ?
I just admire people who have piercings/tato but will not be able make him as my boyfriend..


7. Accepts me as  i am?
Do i have to tell you in detail? Yes!


8. Mushy ?
i dont know , sometime i  "over-sentimental" at any given time... but i hate drama..


09. Thin or fat?
Anything, the importance of bone and flesh have a balanced hahaa..


10. Black, Brown or White ?
sorry.. i have to say that i dont like white guy.. they look metroseksual for me.. black and brown is better.. natural indonesian skinn for good..


11. Smells good?
oh yes yes yes.. definitely yes.. I liked the guy sweating.. they look masculin.. but if his smell not good.. I would lose feeling at the time.. its natural smell or parfume (whatever) important is smell good.. thats enough..


12. Smoker?
No Problem, sometime i smoked also


13. Drinker?
Nope.. hate it


14. Boy-next-door type?
hahaaaa.. boy next door is just puppy love.. done with that..


15. Muscular?
No no no.. I dont want to go out with bodybuilding


16. Plays bass or acoustic guitar?
Either way is fine, I just know how to slam the guitar at metal concerts hahaaa.. sorry


17. narsis?
i  over - narsis also.. lets narsis together hahaa..


18. With glasses?
whatever,, just do not bother his eyes when he kissed me.. and we both glasses.. i think thats cute..


19. Shy type?
no too shy.. so so lah..


20. Rebel or good boy?
hemmmm...confuse.. Rebellllllll yeahh..


21. Active or passive?
i am not hyper type, maybe i need active person beside me.. makes my day cheers and colourfull


22. Hiphop?
Do you know; guy who can rap is so charming to me.. he is awesome.. better be good he know everything about hiphop even he cant rap.. plus point for me..


23. Mr. count-my-ex-boyfriends-until-i-drop?
I-Don't-Give-A-Shit... i dont like to talking my ex to my boyfriend..


24. Dimples?
doesnt matter.. does not affect anything.. its just looks out..


25. Bookworm?
yes please.. coz I dont like reading but I really love writing, he could teach me choose the right words for my paper..


26. pimples ?
i dont like pimples,, its indicated he lazy to wash his face..


27. Flirt?
Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.. i believe it..


28. Serious?
whether it should be ? Why so?


29. Virgin?
LOL, girls will never find any different with virgin guy or not..


30. Religious?
Hmmm..... complicated..  dont want to be too fanatical in any religion.. just good if you could know its good or not in your religion..


31. Playboy?
No. Go away..


32. Speaks several languages?
WOW! my english bad..Teach me English, Hindi, Japanese and Swahili


33. Good kisser?
need to be really........


34. Loves children??
yes Pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee... and loves my family toooooooo babe......


35. computer freak ?
no problem if he still can manage his time for me.. i need him, he's there..


36. rich ?
i dont want to be naive.. financial sources is one of important problems in relationship.. money is not everything, but with money you can do everything.. (bet u agree with me..)


37. Over protected ?
I feel flattered if someone wanted to protect me.. but if it be asked, Can not be too excessive over-protected... any excess is not good..


38. Football freak ?
all guys is foodball freak i guess.. 


39. high temperament ?
i am avoiding the kind of guy like this..


40. Movie freak ?
yes.. i freakin crazy with movies.. lets go cinemaaaaaaaaa...haahaa..

Senin, 17 Oktober 2011

message to someone thousands miles away


I still miss those days .
that, hours of chatting .
fighting over little things.
late night talks .
sharing secrets .
weird dreams .
“being possessive” attitudes .
waiting for your texts .
watching your pics and texts over and over .
smiling for no reason .
trusting you blindly .
your hugs and kisses .
your innocent wishes .
and, now just having .
blank inbox .
no more “I love u” .
hours of loneliness.
unshared emotions .
late night cries .
heartbreaking secrets .
shattered dreams .
deleted memories .
fake smiles .
broken trust .
your nailed hugs .
your devious heartaches .
I don't know why i m still waiting for you..!

Minggu, 16 Oktober 2011

i miss u but i hate u bad ass.. 

Wisdom teeth is killing me..


one week later i felt bad to eat, to chew, to snacking, even to culinary tours.. its not because the food is taste bad , its just because i I have teeth that grow on the bottom of my gums..You know how it is ? its PAIN.. its HURT and its SICK.. I was not eager to eat because of that.. everytime I chew  food my gums feels sickness..ohhhh.. I do not know what kind of  damn teeth that grows, why it's teeth grow at the age I am now ? This is very funny and unnatural.. its blow up my desire to eat.. how can i become a vegen with this ? or how could i increase my weight ? (just for information : I lost 5 pounds 
since 2 months ago, and I am hard to restore it to its original weight).. and the consequently now is I'm skinny like a model hahaaa.. do not protest, let me call myself slim for once.. heheee..


basically I was the one who rarely toothache, never come to the dentist to control it and never come there if not forced.. because I was someone who always keep the teeth clean, use mouthwash every morning and before sleep.. it all to avoid toothache.. go to the dentist can count on one hand.. just for tooth extraction and clean up of tartar, the rest of it is company my sister (she love dentist..because her teeth is a mass hahaha...) 


little bit information about the damn teeth, its called Wisdom tooth : Wisdom teeth are the third and final set of molars that most people get in their late teens or early twenties. Sometimes these teeth can be a valuable asset to the mouth when healthy and properly aligned, but more often, they are misaligned and require removal. ohhhmiiiigoooott... require removal ???? i scare to hear that.. its means i need to go dentist.. no no no way.. I do not know whether the teeth are growing  position is properly or not.. because it can not be seen yet.. i said to some friends about this, they laughed at me.. huuuhuu.. and then i am googling it. i find some testimonials that said we should be let if frist till we know how the tooth look a like and then we decide to take an action.. but some comment said we have to take  quickly action before it's too late.. because they said Wisdom teeth are extracted for two general reasons: either the wisdom teeth have already become impacted, or the wisdom teeth could potentially become problematic if not extracted... ahhh I became confused..